An Art Studio

I’ve tried several times in the last few weeks to write an update post. Thrilling, I know… but it just seems weird to me to start-up now and write a specific post like the last two months didn’t have anything happen in them. I just can’t make any of my attempts work. I have four posts drafted and saved… but I just can’t post them. Actually, this one may not make it either. :(

Mostly, I think I’ve lost a lot of the inspiration I once had, after my Dad passed away. I started the blog five years ago, for my family that lives three thousand miles away from me, as a way for them to keep up with what the boys are doing and see pictures of them growing up. But, now that my biggest blog fan (Dad) is not reading it, and my Mom is blind  and hasn’t been able to use the computer for several years now, it just isn’t the same. But… I know some of my dear friends around the world like to see what is happening at our house from time to time…so, for them… I’ll continue. Or at least try.

Much of the time I am poopy and sad. And I don’t like being poopy and sad around others. Although exhausting, I can “fake it” pretty good when I have to go out and be around people. Some days it’s just too hard to fake. I guess I am not done grieving yet.

But… I am keeping busy and trying to work things out in my mixed up head.

These keys will help.

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Back in September, I figured out how to use the money my Dad left me, in a way that would have made him very happy, makes me happy, and will keep his memory alive forever. I built an art studio in my backyard.

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My Dad and I had gone looking at little out buildings many times when he would come out and visit. We would talk about how cool it would be for me to have a little place that I could “escape” to and work on my creative therapy. We would gather information, take pictures of the ones we liked, walk in and out of them discussing all the while what we could do to make it work as my art studio. And in the end we would always say, “Yea…someday!”

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Well, that someday happened. I’d MUCH rather have my Dad back though. I’d much rather go around looking at the sheds forever with him, than be in one without him. But, since that is not an option, I’m glad that he was able to make the “someday” happen for me. Just wish he could be here to see it. He would be beaming with happiness.

He would look something like this!

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And then he would ask a million and one questions. Questions I don’t even think of asking. Things that one would need to know if they were going to do the project right… but that few of us ask.

I hope I do him proud.

I found a local company that builds on site. Dustin Hirschfeld was professional and good to work with. My Dad would have really liked him. He and his crew got this up in two days…and in the rain. Check out their website at Backyard Custom Construction or even better… on Face Book here Backyard Custom Construction. I got more of what I wanted, and we didn’t have to deal with hauling a big building down our long, already broken, driveway.

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It has been a very emotional journey for me. At first I didn’t want to tell anyone about the studio. I told a select few with fear and trepidation. I’m not sure why. But I am now getting used to the idea, and it doesn’t feel as much like I traded him in for an art studio anymore. It is a beautiful gift from him… and a wonderful way to keep him with me forever.

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My precious neighbors brought me this lovely gift not long after the studio was up. Beautiful sounding wind chimes that say “in memory of Papa”.  *sniff*

It’s still in the process of being finished. Electricity is in. The drywall almost all up, and then the ceiling will be next. I have most of the furniture picked out or purchased already, and am chomping at the bit to get it all done so I can “move in”.

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My husband wouldn’t let me have a bathroom out there. He said he’d NEVER see me again if it had one. He’s probably right. I could live out there. Hey… I have no problem peeing in the woods! I could maybe last a few days before having to come home and clean up. :)

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Sooooooo, besides the art studio construction process,

homeschooling,

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keeping up with all the feathered, furry and funny rascals,

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surviving a nasty cold bug making the rounds,

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a visit from my cousin and her kids,

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doing three different photo shoots,

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going to a beautiful wedding,

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making 300 ornaments and two life-size snowmen (pictures to come) for Truly Christmas,

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the death of a dear-sweet friend (who has made a major impact in my life) from our church,

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a 16th birthday party with 10 teenage boys – overnight,

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keeping the family “full”, house “clean”, and laundry “done”… I am trying to take some time for myself to meditate and grieve the loss of my Dad. It has been six months already. I just can’t belive it. I miss him SO much.

I do know that I was blessed with a great Dad. I had a wonderful relationship with him and we spoke often. He was a good Papa to my boys and they are all old enough to remember him and all the good times they had with him. All that is a major blessing. So many don’t have good relationships with their parents, or don’t even know who they are. My Dad was a blessing to our family and to many, many others as well. He gave from the heart. He gave his time, his money, his knowledge and his love. He was kind and generous to everyone he met. You did not have to know him to gain a blessing from him! He impacted strangers everywhere he went. Genuinely interested in people, their lives, their family’s and their hearts. I was blessed. And continue to be blessed.

No promises… but I do hope that I will begin to get back to “myself” again soon, and maybe get better at keeping up with this blog. ;)

hugs,

hi-d

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4 responses to “An Art Studio

  1. Wanda Johnson

    Heidi, thanks for posting! I love your new art studio! I can’t think of a better way to honor your dad. So sorry that you are hurting so much. :( Praying you will feel better soon but don’t rush yourself. It takes time–a lot of time. It will get better but it will never be like it was before. But God will help you as you take one day at a time!! Love you, Wanda

  2. Nagisa, Yuji, and Kaoru

    We always love to know what you guys are up to!
    Your dad will always be with you, in you, Just take your time
    Love these pics of your new furry family members, I’m thinking I am almost where I do not hurt so much to think about Kaoru’s furry little sister and guess what, it has beem more than two years.. Of course it takes a whole lot longer to get over the loss you suffered.
    Dave is right about not letting you have a bathroom. It’s so funny..he thought about that.
    Have fun decorating the studio and moving in..wish we could be there to help
    Hello! to the boys, Has Darren moved? How is mama Jetta?

    • Thank you Nagisa.
      Darren won’t be moving until next month sometime. He is looking for a job up there and still has to get them a place to live. Very expensive area, so I pray they will find something affordable and still be in a good area.
      Jetta is hanging in there. She is getting more and more blind. Making her irritable with Brutus. I am just praying that I know when she has had enough. I do not want her to struggle or be in pain for too long. But she is happy now and is loving the fall weather.
      Hi to your guys! And we too wish you were living closer to us! Good memories of when we were neighbors. :)

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